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  “As long as you’re okay, I am, too.” He tightened his hold on her, which was how Grace felt his cock against her backside.

  “That didn’t take long,” she said with a chuckle.

  “We shouldn’t do it again. You’ll be sore.”

  She reached behind her to stroke him and felt him get even harder.

  “Grace…”

  She wasn’t ready for their perfect night to be over. “I want to do it again. I don’t care if I’m sore.”

  “You’ll care tomorrow.”

  “Are you saying no?” she asked, calling upon the most suggestive tone she could muster as she removed her hand and pressed her backside against his erection. It nestled snugly into her cleft.

  “God, Grace, you’re hard to resist.” He withdrew from her long enough to roll on another condom. “Stay like this,” he said with his hand on her hip, arranging her the way he wanted her.

  When he entered her from behind, she cried out from the surprise and sheer thrill of the new position.

  “Does it hurt?”

  “No,” she said, reaching for his hand. “It feels amazing.”

  Encouraged by her words, Evan moved them so she was on all fours and he was poised behind her. Old Grace would’ve been worried about him seeing her backside, but New Grace couldn’t do anything but focus on the exquisite feel of him deep inside her.

  Then he reached around her, touching his fingers to her clitoris as he rocked into her, surging deeper with every new stroke.

  Grace gripped the sheets, seeking to anchor herself as he took her apart one stroke at a time. She was beginning to fear her perfect night would haunt the rest of her imperfect life. Where would she ever find another man who could make her feel the way Evan did? Cherished and protected and worshiped and adored?

  As he slowly stroked her to yet another mind-altering orgasm, Grace began to worry about how she’d ever let him go in the morning.

  Chapter 14

  After the upsetting call from Justin, Laura wouldn’t have expected to spend most of the evening laughing. Owen had talked her into sharing a large meat-lover’s pizza, arguing that the baby needed the protein. Laura suspected he needed the protein.

  On the way back to the hotel, he dragged her into the arcade and bought a hundred tokens. He insisted they use every one of them before they could leave. Laura had never done more shooting or blowing things up or wild driving in her life. She also couldn’t remember the last time she’d laughed until she cried. Blowing things up, she decided, was rather cathartic, especially with Owen egging her on.

  Laura told herself it didn’t mean anything that he kept an arm slung loosely around her shoulders as they strolled through town on the way to the hotel. The more time she spent with him, the more confused her feelings toward him became. In the wake of what she’d just been through with her husband, the last thing she needed was to become involved with a man who had no permanent address and liked it that way. Even if he was one of the most appealing men she’d ever known.

  But the thought of not hanging out with Owen anymore made her feel sad, and she was tired of being sad all the time. “You have a gig to get to,” she reminded him.

  “I’ve got some time yet.”

  “Not much.”

  “You’re already sounding like a mom,” he said with laughter in his voice.

  “Sorry. I didn’t mean…”

  He stopped walking and turned to face her, keeping his arm around her. The new position brought them closer than they’d ever been.

  Laura’s heart began to pound.

  “I was teasing, Princess.”

  “I know that.” Laura was mortified when her eyes filled. Damned hormones!

  “Aw, honey, don’t…”

  Laura wanted to kiss him more than she’d ever wanted anything. Alarmed by her reaction to him, she pulled free of his embrace and took off for the hotel, needing some space and distance before she did something she’d regret.

  “Laura! Wait!” He ran to catch up with her.

  She scrambled up the stairs to the porch. Her hands shook as her stupid key refused to work again.

  His hands on her shoulders were nearly her undoing. Dropping her head to her chest, she struggled to regain her composure. She turned to him, planning to apologize for acting so crazy. Before she could find the words, he took her face in his hands, taking her breath away with the intense, hungry way he looked at her. And then his lips were on hers, soft and sweet and undemanding.

  Laura put her hand on his chest, intending to push him away, but then he tipped his head ever so slightly, taking the kiss from slow burn to flame.

  “I can’t,” she whispered against his lips. But, oh, how she wanted to! “Owen…”

  “I’m sorry.” He leaned his forehead against hers and seemed to be collecting himself. “I couldn’t wait another minute to see if it would be as good as I thought.”

  Laura knew she shouldn’t ask. “Was it?”

  Laughing softly, he said, “What do you think?”

  “We want different things out of life. I can’t set myself up for another disappointment. I just can’t.”

  “I understand.”

  “Do you? Really?”

  “Yes, I really do.”

  “My life is such a mess right now. I need to be focused on the baby and the hotel. You’ll be leaving soon, and… I can’t do this. I’m sorry.”

  “I get it, Princess, but I’m not sorry I kissed you.”

  “It was a good kiss.”

  He brightened at that. “Yeah?”

  She bit her bottom lip and forced herself to meet his gaze as she nodded. “But it can’t happen again.”

  “I know.”

  “Are we still friends?” she asked, feeling as if her very life depended on the answer to that one simple question.

  “Of course we are. You can’t get rid of me that easily.”

  Relief flooded through her, making Laura weak in the knees. “Good.”

  He reached around her to finagle the key and pushed open the door.

  “How do you do that?”

  “I told you—it’s all in the wrist.”

  “Your wrist, maybe. It doesn’t like mine.”

  “What’s not to like about this wrist?” He took her hand and gave it a gentle twist. “Like that.”

  His brush of his thumb over the pulse point inside her wrist made her breathless and needy and afraid that her wavering self-control wouldn’t hold up, so she took back her hand and stepped away from him. “See you in the morning?”

  “Yep.”

  “Have a good night at work.”

  “You’ll be okay here by yourself?”

  “I’ll be fine. I’d better get used to it, right? Shane won’t be here until December,” she said of her brother, “so I’ll be here by myself for a few months after you leave in October.”

  His usually sunny disposition turned stormy all of a sudden. “I don’t love the idea of you being here alone and pregnant during the off season.”

  “You’re not changing your mind about offering me the job, are you?” He couldn’t possibly do that to her after she’d upended her entire life to move to the island.

  “No, silly. The job is yours for as long as you want it.”

  “How do you know I’ll be any good at it?”

  “I have no doubt about that, or I never would’ve told my grandparents to hire you.”

  “Thanks for the vote of confidence, but the jury is still out on whether an art history major has any business running a hotel.”

  “I have full faith in you.”

  “Thank you,” she said, humbled by his certainty. “You don’t know how much that means to me.”

  “Go get some sleep, Princess. I don’t like those dark circles under your eyes. You’ve been burning the candle at both ends.”

  Had anyone ever paid closer attention to her or cared so much about her? Other than her father and the mother she barely remembered, Laura couldn�
��t think of anyone. As she trudged upstairs, it occurred to her that she needed to be very careful where the adorable, sexy, thoughtful Owen Lawry was concerned.

  Very careful, indeed.

  Owen watched her climb the stairs, wishing he could go up with her and tuck her into bed. He wanted to stay with her until she fell asleep, until he was certain the demons that chased her during the day would leave her alone to let her get some much-needed rest.

  From the first instant he’d seen her at the door earlier, he’d been able to tell by her defeated posture that the last ten days had taken a terrible toll. An aura of fragility surrounded her now that hadn’t been there when they’d first met after her cousin Janey’s wedding. The deep purple bruises under her eyes were a dead giveaway that she’d had some sleepless nights.

  He wanted to go to the mainland, find her deadbeat husband and punch his lights out for putting her through such a horrible ordeal. Any guy who was lucky enough to have Laura McCarthy for his wife shouldn’t have any need for other women.

  As Owen grabbed his guitar and a sweatshirt and headed out to his van, he thought about the evening he’d spent with her. He couldn’t remember the last time he’d had more fun, and they’d done nothing more than eat pizza and play video games.

  She was easy to be with, fun, quick to laugh and lovely to look at with her blonde hair, soft blue eyes and flawless skin. And that kiss, man… He’d be thinking about that for a long time to come. Of course, he got why she couldn’t let anything happen between them. He’d made it perfectly clear that he loved his life exactly the way it was, living from one gig to the next with everything he owned fitting inside the old VW van that served as his home base when he was off-island.

  He had no interest in shackling himself to any woman, especially one who was pregnant with another man’s child. That had “complication” written all over it. What would her husband do when he found out there was a baby? He’d already said he wouldn’t sign the divorce papers.

  Owen needed to be in the middle of that mess like he needed a hole in the head. By the time he got to McCarthy’s marina and set up his microphone on the deck next to the Tiki Bar, he’d managed to talk himself out of wanting anything more with her. A fabulous few hours of fun and one amazing kiss weren’t enough to change an entire life.

  Except even as he had that thought, the notion of leaving for the winter and not seeing her for months on end made him feel edgy and unsettled. Unwilling to further explore those disturbing feelings, he vowed to shake off the contemplative mood. She wasn’t his problem, and it would do him good to remember that.

  As he bantered with the rowdy bar crowd and played the opening chords to “Please Come to Boston,” he felt sorry for the guy in the song who was pleading with his love to join him in the city of the moment by extolling the virtues of each new place his singing career took him. The guy was pathetic, and Owen would never be him. No way. He was footloose and fancy-free, and he planned to stay that way.

  Linda McCarthy was on her second cup of coffee by the time her husband made an appearance downstairs. He’d showered, shaved and combed his wiry gray hair into submission. A closer look at his face indicated that he’d missed a few spots with the razor, not that she’d be foolish enough to mention that to him.

  He had a new spring in his step that filled her with optimism as he poured himself a cup of coffee.

  “I need you to be ready at six tonight—”

  “Grant called—” She stopped when his words registered. “What did you say? Ready for what?”

  “I’m picking you up at six and taking you out.”

  Linda’s heart did a silly little jig as she caught a glimpse of the sexy young man who’d swept her off her feet with alarming ease forty years ago. “Where’re we going?”

  “That’s a surprise, but wear jeans and something warm. Don’t get dressed up.”

  “Um, okay. Sure.” She was game for anything he wanted if it meant they got to spend some quality time together.

  “Now what were you saying about Grant?” he asked.

  “He and Stephanie are organizing an impromptu going-away party for Abby tonight.”

  Big Mac raised a bushy brow. “Grant and Stephanie are having a party for Abby?”

  Linda smiled at the way he said that. Yes, it might seem odd that their son and his new girlfriend were having a party for his ex-girlfriend, but Linda also thought it was very sweet of them to give Abby a proper send-off. “I thought the same thing, but he said someone needed to do it, so why not them?”

  “They’ve come a long way in a short time, those two.”

  “They’re madly in love,” Linda said with a smile. It did her heart good to see her kids settling down with loving partners. Three down, two to go. “Speaking of madly in love, Evan never came home last night. He told me he was playing with Owen at the Tiki and hanging out with him afterward, but Doro Chase told me she saw him with a woman at the Lobster House. I did a little digging and found out it was Grace, the one who stayed here last weekend. Remember?”

  “Of course I remember. Pretty girl.”

  “Very pretty. Grant told me she came out to the island yesterday to pay back the money Evan gave her to get home after her date abandoned her on the island.”

  “Interesting.”

  “I’m glad you think so. I liked her for him.”

  “Now, Lin, don’t get ahead of yourself. Just because he had dinner with a gal—”

  “And stayed out all night.”

  “—and stayed out all night, doesn’t mean the boy is changing his ways.”

  “We would’ve said the same thing about Mac right before he met Maddie,” Linda reminded her husband. She couldn’t remember the last time they’d had one of their regular conversations that involved her plotting and scheming in their children’s lives and him holding her back from doing something she’d regret. “Doro also said she saw Owen and Laura walking arm in arm in town.”

  “Is that right? Well, good for Laura—and for Owen. He couldn’t do any better than my lovely niece.”

  “I agree, but she needs to get over what happened with Justin before she jumps into something new.”

  “She’s a cautious gal. You don’t need to worry about her. At least we know Owen is as straight-up as they come, unlike that douche bag she married.”

  “Mac! Language!” Linda said what he expected from her, but she held back the urge to giggle like a schoolgirl. Her beloved husband was coming back to her, one day at a time.

  “Just callin’ it like I see it.”

  “Why did you put your coffee in a travel mug?”

  “Mac is picking me up in ten minutes.”

  “To go where?”

  “Can’t tell you. It’s a secret.”

  He looked so pleased with himself that Linda had to work very hard to keep the delight from showing on her face. She couldn’t wait to find out what he had up his sleeve but was wary of overreacting or doing anything to endanger their fragile accord. “So what’re we doing tonight?”

  He came over to her chair, propped his good hand on the back and leaned in so he was an inch from her face.

  Startled by the almost predatory look on his face, Linda held her breath.

  “Nice try, my love, but you’ll have to wait and see.” He leaned in to give her a lingering kiss.

  Wanting to keep him there awhile longer, Linda reached up to curl a hand around his neck and took the kiss to the next level.

  By the time he pulled back from her, he was breathing a little harder.

  “That was a dirty trick,” he said with a sexy grin.

  She smiled. “I learned from the best.”

  That seemed to please him. “Six o’clock?”

  “I’ll be ready. Did I mention that Grant and Stephanie asked if they could have Abby’s party here?”

  “That’s okay,” he said, giving her one last kiss. “We won’t be home.”

  Chapter 15

  Leaving the Beachcomber b
efore dawn, Evan set out for the bluffs at the island’s southernmost point and sat on the grass to watch the sunrise. Hours later, he was still there, trying to figure out what the hell had happened in that small hotel room.

  He’d had plenty of sex in his life, but calling what happened between him and Grace “sex” didn’t do it justice. With her, the “deed” had bordered on a religious experience. Just thinking about it had him hard and wanting more.

  “For crying out loud,” he said to the morning breeze. “Give me a freaking break!”

  Evan felt like some alien force had taken him over without his permission and changed who he was. The unsettling thought only heightened the anxiousness he’d been riddled with since he woke up in her arms earlier.

  Upon realizing where he was and who he was with, his very first thought had been to get the heck out of there before this got even more complicated. What had he been thinking, sleeping all night with her? He’d known from the first instant he met her that she was different from most other woman. Not only was she innocent—truly innocent, he thought with a groan—but she was too nice and too sweet to be dallying with the likes of him.

  A vicious round of sneezing left him dazed as his watery eyes reminded him that in the throes of hay-fever season, the last place someone with allergies like his should be sitting was in a field full of pollen.

  With elbows propped on knees, he ran his fingers through his hair as bits and pieces of lyrics danced through his mind. The words were softer and more heartfelt than usual, which only added to his anxiety. One night with Grace and he was spouting poetry, for Christ’s sake!

  It wouldn’t do. It simply wouldn’t do. Furious at himself and at her and the pollen that made him so miserable this time of the year, he got up to brush the grass and dirt from his rumpled khakis. As he stormed down the path that led to the road, Evan wondered if she was awake yet. Was she questioning where he’d gone and why? Was she expecting him to call her and make plans to get together again today?

  He hoped not, because that was not going to happen. There was no way he could spend more time with her, not when he felt so churned up and out of sorts afterward. Did that make him an asshole? Probably, but at least he hadn’t abandoned her on an island with no money and no place to stay.